No good post comes at 4:30 in the morning. Not much good of anything comes at 4:30 in the morning. I should, as I have written before, step away from the keyboard. But since I seem unable to turn off this machine, I am safer writing to you, than to her.
Lady Antebellum has a song that fits and hits home at the moment. The classic line out of it is "I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all." Some days, I'm not so sure about that...
It's a twist off of the old Shakespearean quote: "It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"
In the bigger picture of life, I agree. At 4:30 in the morning when all of me aches for her, not so much...
Pining, by the way, is not pretty.
Pine TREES may be, but not pining.
Neither is whining.
It's supposed to get better with time... And with other loves, I can see that it did. This one, though, is taking it's sweet time.
There truly isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss her. Typically that line might be some expression meant to encompass a general missing, but seriously, not a day. Sometimes I wish a day would go by...
I'm in that silly phase of if you love someone, set them free. If they don't come back to you, they were never yours.
(The way my ex used to say it, "if they don't come back, hunt them down and shoot them." And people wonder why I am afraid of her!)
All of these lyrics seem particularly appropriate tonight...
Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Woah, woah
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now, I just need you now
Oh baby, I need you now
Yep - oh, baby, I need you now!
I'm sorry, sweets. There's not much I can say other than that.
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ReplyDeletewe should exchange phone #'s ... I'm usually up at 430 in the morning (fucking insomnia) ...so I've available to chat.
That song makes me ache for my best friend, who wanted me forever, and who I didn't want until after he introduced me to the girl he eventually married.
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